Falling in love

Tonight as I lay in my bed I cant help but be completely awestruck by how in love with the Lord I am. It's a love that is unexplainable and in some ways I don't even know how it happened. But I guess here is a starting point.....

I fell in love for the first time at age 5. I walked down the aisle and made a commitment. I claimed to get what this whole christianity thing was about. What I have come to realize, however, is this was just the beginning of a free fall.... to the foot of the cross.

At age 13 I moved to Huntsville, AL. I made new friends, attended a new school, and my life changed completely. I had to cling to the only thing that felt safe...Christ. Once again, I was falling... and secretly hoping I would hit the ground at some point. Certainly I knew what this whole christianity thing was about now.

At age 18 I picked up everything and started college at Auburn University. I joined a great sorority, made amazing friends, and thought I had my life together. I was, however, oblivious to the fact that my free fall was still taking place.

Now at 22, I sit in awe of how I got to this point. I am about to graduate college, have a great career I am beginning, and have a family that loves me. Life would seem to be working out just the way I wanted it to.... but sit back and enjoy because you are about to be proven wrong.

Life is actually really hard. Post-grad life is very lonely, too many transitions are taking place, and I feel like my head is spinning out of control. I dont have time to work out, I dont have time to hang with friends, i dont have time to think of what I want for dinner. I am a mess... but then again, I always have been.......

But here is the catch.....

I am still falling. Falling in love with a God who created me from his inner most being. Falling in love with a man who died on the cross so that I may live in confidence of where i will spend eternity. I was, am, and will always be falling more in love with Jesus.

“Because God has made us for Himself, our hearts are restless until they rest in Him.” ~Augustine of Hippo

So here is to being restless, here is to free falling to the foot of the cross, here is to living a life of complete gratitude. Gratitude for the love of our Savior.

Now, I am completely aware that this whole christianity thing will never make sense. That this free fall is just beginning, and that I am on an endless adventure with the maker of the universe. 

So tonight I am excited to know that falling in love is not a one time thing.... that I am continually falling in love day by day with the man who shed his blood so that I may live.

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